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[09 Jan 2005|01:21am] Are you a kid of the 90's Italisize what you watched/remember.and comment* Fresh Prince Of Bel-Air yer movin with yer aunti and uncle in bel -air Fraggle Rock i didnt even like it G.I. Joe Are You Afraid Of The Dark? i used to sneak to watch it cause i wasnt alowed id ahve nitemares Secret World Of Alex Mac i like when people turn into shiny puddles Nightmare Before Christmas Welcome Freshman Space Casesyuk Roundhouse The Muppet Show didnt like much Muppet Babies Eureka's Castle ah ah ah CHEWWWWWWWWW Salute Your Shortscamp anawana we hold you in our hearts..<*3 Hey Dudegood show good show Legends Of The Hidden Temple i got was always the red side You Can't Do That On Television Figure It Out i was good at this G.U.T.S. What Would You Do? Double Dare meh.. Rocko's Modern Life FISH STICKS! Bevis and Buttheaddorkkk All That this is all thaAaAaAt Ren And Stimpy sing a happy happy happy happy happy happy song! Clarissa Explains It All haha tru dat The Torklesons weird haggard ass hick names..thats cool Pete And Pete i wish my mom had a plate in her head Stick Stickley write to me stick stickly P.O. box 183 new york city new york state 10108 Goodburger welcome to goodburger home of the good burger may i take your order Angry Beavers everybody in canada says EH! Hey Arnold MOVE IT FOOTBALL HEAD! AAH! Real Monsters obweena crum and iiickus Loony Toons tttttthats all folks Animaniacs i <3ed them Pinky And The Brainone is a genius the others insane The Babysitters Club boring kinda Underdog Kablam Gullah Gullah Island gullah gullah island BINYAH BINYAH Richard Scarry the busy world of richard scarry woo woo! Dumbo's circus everyone knows this Ocean Girl Mystery Files Of Shelby Woo Snick Snacks Dunkaroos they were reaaaaaaaaaaaaaal good.. Snick thats when all the big kid shows came on Koala Yummies Where In The World Is Carmen Sandiego? The Goonies goonies never say die Ernest movies i rememeber the xmas on the best Radio Flyer Adventures In Wonderlandim late im late for a very important date no time to say hello goodbye im late im late im late Homeward Bound just watched it \/\/\/ The Adventures Of Yellow Dog with my doggy Milo And Otis ha talking animals cooool Neverending Storyhated! this movie Who Framed Roger Rabbit aww The Lion King i cryed i still do Labyrinth 101 Dalmations i had 101 dalmation underwear im cool The Secret Garden saw it in like 7th grade Pete's Dragon funny Hocus Pocus just watched it Land Before Time cousins have up to IIV Dinosaurs boringish Fern Gully she was a pretty fairy Secret Of NIMH Gummi Bears i need some gummi juice Care Bears cute cute A Little Princess My Little Pony i ahve one still Black Beauty i ahve the book too Rainbow Brite pretty Lady Lovely Locks Candyland i always lost Sorry! lost that too Trouble was an annoying clicking game..i was slick at it though Don't Wake Daddy my sis has it Mousetrap havent played it since..the 90's ahaha Jenga sucks Don't Break The Ice i was good at that Hungry Hungry Hippos i <3ed this id play it everyday Cooties Tinker Toys id make log cabin things aha The castles that made tea sets Sky Dancers Polly Pocket used to ahve one eyey Lite Brite i found my one the other day Scrunchies still use them ha Side Ponytails still do it jus not as tight Stirrup Pants Jellies still use Saddle shoes Barbies dont still use..but i loved them Beanie babies haha worthlesss Tamagotchies hahah Yo-Yos couldnt do it if my life depended on it Choose Your Own Adventure Pogs sister collected Goosebumps scarrry American Girl have kirsten Island Of The Blue Dolphins Saved By The Bell Zach Morrisx3 Step By Step day by DAY BY DAYYYYY TGIF on ABC Sabrina The Teenage Witch hah still watch it Boy Meets World still watch itX3 Clueless too girly Mork And Mindy Simpsons ahhhh Flipper i love that moviex3 Eerie Indiana Third Rock From The Sun boring show Tracey Ullman Show Ghost Writer boring Growing Pains MIKE SEAVER..me and my sis knew all their real names Titanic every night in my dreams . . . Felix The Cat: The Movie Jonathan Taylor Thomas yummm Home Improvement hahah tim allen Tom And Huck boysx3 My Brother And Me black black blackkkk Kenan And Kel i do i do i do OHHHHHHHHH..repair man man man man man man. . Hanson x3 still like them sitting at a busstop in the middle of no where sitting beside me was a man wiht no hair Inspector Gadget dun na na na NA inspector Gadget Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles the rat was wise unlike mine Power Rangers i was trina cause yellow was my fav color.. Hot Wheels how wheels lead the wayyyyyy Creepy Crawlers i used to make um n scare my mom Easy Bake Oven i made brownies at jess reids house hahaha Flower making kits mine were scented and there were bonus butterflies in it Weinerville Wild And Crazy Kids haha omar gooding hosted that right? Playdough i had all the supplies animorphs didnt they morph into aminals yeh? Rainbow Fish If You Give A Mouse A Cookie Bailey School Kids Leprechauns dont mop floors // Santa clause doesnt play basketball Wayside School ha i hate reading Mrs. Piggle Wiggle Boxcar Kids Ramona Quimby boring Amber Brown boring Ronald Dahl boring 001 ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

[24 Nov 2004|02:51pm] [ music | i'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart//<*3 ] x\\ spell your name backwards: iak x\\ have you ever had a song written about you: nope i dont think x\\ what song makes you cry: i'll catch you//by get up kids x\\ what song makes you happy:Lean Back(STOP its da mothafuckin remixxxx) x\\ what's your all time fav. song?: I can tell {[Saosin}] x\\ what do you listen to before you go to sleep: tbb//placebo//tbs//asl x\\ height: 5 somethign x\\ hair color: fading brown aha x\\ piercings: 8 x\\ tattoos: nopeee Right Now . . . x\\ what color pants are you wearing: black x\\ what song are you listening to: Lean back remixxx x\\ what taste is in your mouth?: my tongue is burnt i ahvent eaten anything x\\ whats the weather like?: stupid;; cold & rainy x\\ how are you?: meh x\\ get motion sickness?: i might of once x\\ have a bad habit?: biting my nailsss x\\ get along with your parents?: not anymore x\\ boyfriend/girlfriend: uhh : / x\\ have a current crush: tehehe..<*3 x\\ have a big regret: probably Favorite . . . x\\ tv show: courage// fairly odd parents// jimmy neutron x\\ conditioner: garnier fructis x\\ book: i hardly ever read..sloppy firsts was a good book & henry's aweful mistake.. x\\ non alchohol drink: dnL x\\ alchohol drink: hah theres alot x\\ things to do on the weekend: hang with my only friend stacey hahaha Have You Ever . . . x\\ broken the law: yahh x\\ ran away from home: yahh x\\ snuck out of the house: hehe x\\ ever gone skinny dipping: who hasn't? x\\ made a prank phone call: yes maam x\\ tipped over a portapotty: and burned it;; x\\ use your parents credit card: my mom gaurds that thing with her life.. x\\ skipped school before: nope x\\ fell asleep in the shower/bath: hahaha yeh x\\ been in a school play: not a school one x\\ had a boyfriend/girlfriend: uhhh yeh.. x\\ had children: WHAT? x\\ been in love: not yet.. x\\ have a hard time getting over someone: i did.. x\\ been hurt?: alot x\\ gone out with someone you only knew for 3 days: haha i dont think Random . . . x\\ have a job: if babysittings a job, yes.. x\\ your cd player has what in it right now: from autumn to ashes x\\ if you were a crayon, what color would you be?: green x\\ what makes you happy?: alot of things x\\ the next CD you're going to buy: hmm..theres alot i want When/What Was the Last . . . x\\ you got a real letter: haha does a postcard count? x\\ got an email: i dont check my email x\\ thing you purchased: hmm..clothes of course x\\ Tv program you watched: fairly odd parents x\\ movie you saw in the theaters: the polar express x\\ kissed: kiss or kissed? i dont remember sad ay? x\\ hugged: wtf? uhm erica haha x\\ song heard: clocks by coldplayyy<*3 x\\ place you were [ besides home ]: nanny's x\\ phonecall: gracey sant// aka stacey.. x\\ you were depressed: now maybe x\\ you were in the hospital: uhm when i got stitches in august..yum When/What Comes to Mind When You Hear . . . x\\ car: Love rhymes with hideous car wreck! x\\ murder: love is murderrrr! x\\ cape: may! x\\ penis: face! x\\ cell: half slash textt! x\\ shoe: sneaker pimps! x\\ fun: the beachh! x\\ crush: my dreams i'll fade awayyyy)) x\\ music: i <3 music! x\\ chalk: turkey! x\\ boat: toy boat toy boat toy boat..i cant say that ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart;; [24 Nov 2004|10:56am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | i'm a fake{[THE USEDDD}] ] I hate the way you [say my name] like it's [something secret]<*3 xXHoTtLiPz01Xx: and plus the word shy rhymes with kai ...tru dat hah;; All my ink satisfied, In your eyes. so yesterday..idk why but;; i put my moms wrinkle cream on my forhead cause my nanny told me my face was getting wrinkly ha so i put it on to find out it wasnt wrinkle cream it was lip enhancer..so i put it on my lips too..like 3 seconds later my forhead and lips were burning so i went to get ice and came back looked in the mirror to find that my lips and forhead were like swollen and red cool ay? this lasted for about an hour..yum..haha i should have taken a picture)) I'm telling you i'm a fake Just look at me now I'm a fake I'm a fake My stomach hurts now, And all tied off in lace. *Love is not like anything//especially a fucking knife)) I really dont get anything...school family guys and kinda friends..wow i stink on ice haha;;oh yeh and we had to write a play for s. english..so yeh and we had to act it out today haha guess who slipped on stage in front of the class..im such a loserrrr! hah)) TaintedLove5494: my tractor brings all the boys to the yard and there like xXNever x Exhale: hahahah it's better then yahs damn right its better then yahs TaintedLove5494:i could teach you but i have to..? xXNever x Exhale: plow? hahahhahahah ...good times with her- - So kiss me like you did my heart stopped beating such a softer sin ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

Yay-e-yeah I'll put assassins in your little head yeah [21 Nov 2004|06:46pm] [ mood | weird? ] [ music | FaTa [{chloroform Perfume}] ] You wanna pop pop pop You wanna click click click well today sucked cause i didnt feel good..more then like 1 reason..hah..cause i felt like it yesterday too a lil it just was worse for a certain reason..bad headaches man..i had to skip tryouts today cause i felt bad enough to not go even though i wanted to or i wouldnt make it..but i think i will not cause of reasons..yehh..i hate being in weird moods..bleh..HELLO my first name is distance and I really don't care if I never wake up again. why am i trying to impress people if i can;t even impress myself??;; *We're the [cooleSt kids] and we tAke what we [cAn get...] yeh i just wanna put lyrics in here haha.. A lesson learned is a picture burned, You're a memory to me. . . DaOnEnOnLyDaNa: when we were at the fire drill shes like kai. and shes like i guess shes not here today xXNever x Exhale: hahahahah xXNever x Exhale: oh i was there alright DaOnEnOnLyDaNa: lol xXNever x Exhale: my invisible friend took my place i guess she didnt see her DaOnEnOnLyDaNa: i guess not xXNever x Exhale: thats a shame xXNever x Exhale: my friend was nice DaOnEnOnLyDaNa: shes needs glasses xXNever x Exhale: i know lemme tell you ..2 words..[spanish] [class]- - Don't pick me to keep your eyes from crying You said so much without even parting your lips stacey g: you know how you and shannon were singing UNBREAK MY HEARTTTT, SAY YOULL LOVE ME AGAIN...on jerrys answering machine? stacey g: well it wasnt jerry who she called. it was aaron and he just called and was like wtf? She's finally seen she's a beautiful girl with a smile so grand she could stop the world;;; He keeps on asking "do you think it hurts much to die" "It's hurting so much more to stay alive now" He's gonna find out how much it hurts to die Smiles are not more than (empty love.) your head in your hands and this is my cue, if three words could heal you i would only speak two//<*3 LiLHen811 : quasi yoga thigh lasers LiLHen811 : cold airquadri eggroll LiLHen811 : horse women doorstep+3/4 LiLHen811 : griffon feable weiner long post ay?? yeah .. ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

Why are [relationships] so hard??///cause [being alone] is even harder;; [18 Nov 2004|12:34pm] [ mood | hehe.. * ] [ music | beating hearts baby- -[h]Automatica ] You know that [we] were always [funny] in that car [crash] sort of way * (my computer is fixed..heheh..uhm yeh i love stacey and christine yey..hahah wow) Making up a history, It's nothing from the life you lead but man will they buy all your lines. We're not twenty-one, but the sooner we are, the sooner the fun will begin, so get out your fake eyelashes, and fake i.d's, & real disasters ensue, it's cool to take these chances. It's cool to fake romances & grow up fast.<*3 danas cool too;;lol *\\[Bad] taste in my mouth. You would think I'm a [whore.] Bad [taste] in my mouth. You would think I'm [you.]//* 001 ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

You got me up against your wall // <*3 [28 Oct 2004|09:42pm] [ mood | thanks lys.. ] hey just got home from hanigng with g jerry shan and james..fun day cept i mist the northampton parade and it sucks...: / PlayThatSong xox: aw yeah i know. dont worry everyone feels like that at some time & at the age were at now you better get use to it because these are the hardest years when it comes to emotions, your growing up and shit. you want to grow up but at the same time you dont cause you dont want things to be different and youll miss it.... but then you have to look at it like this///..... i know life changes and you miss so much but new memories and times will replace them. its hard to see it like that, but it is like that talks with her mean the most<3 002 ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

::We're talking about our lives,like we've known each other forever::<*3 [27 Oct 2004|09:31pm] [ mood | i love talks.. ] [ music | Matchbook..[{Tiger Lily}] ] As we round the corner to your house you turned to me and said,i'll be going through withdrawl of you for this one night we have spent.<*3 hey everyone just got home from haning with stace& jerry and shannon..first me shan and stace had a detention and lys waited for us then jerry picked us all up from schoool..then dropped us off at stace's cause him n aaron had to do somethign i forget what..then we ate n shizz n ssang to tbb and the old hc cause were dorks and brings back old memories haha..anyway yeh after dinner jerry came back for us n we went to some kid marks house..he wasnt home yet so we all talked for a bit thenwent in after he came..hhung out for a while..then me n shan walked to alyssa's house..since shes not allowed to ahve people over we all sat on the curb and talked about everythign..getting in trouble; ;;boys; ;;summer; ;;memories;; everythign i loved it..then we got some stuff to eat quick when her dad was in the shower and headed back to that kid marks house where jerry n stace were and when we got there stace n jerry were holding hands how cuuuuute! i love them together..we watched the bath parade cause jerry and all them were in it last night and this was the first year since i was six that i didnt go..: /..we saw jerry with his jeep with a tigger suit on and stacey in the passenger ..we couldnt really see anyone else cept jake..haha it was good ..then i had to be home..so we went on back roads and jerry was swerving and it was fun till the last time where we spun like half way around and like kept swerving and i hit my arm but its ok now haha..it reminded me of when i got in my lil dirtbike "accident" as the insurance people called it..oh well im good..and veeeery tired..oh man i love talks<33..anyway..bye.<*3im talented at breathing..especially exhaling so that my chest rise and fall with yours I make up excuses just to touch you and I can't stop, I can't stop. So are we playing for keeps? ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

*Just one rose it knows your name - - [24 Oct 2004|08:42pm] [ mood | ehh???hmm.. ] [ music | Liz Phair{[Why can'y I?}] ] Breathe out----------------------* So I could breathe you in //<*3 yo..we won our game on friday...i left during varsity cause kylee picked me up..we were supposed to go see tbb and against me with kylee stacey crut and gene but we uhm didnt go and that was gay..then me n ky met diz mark stace gene and danny at dizzys house..then mark diz gene me stace n kylee went to genes for their band practice which me n stace went like deaf from...then danny came..after they were done we all went to bogins house where bogin ammon ryan and tony were there then matt came..and it was so freakin hot in his room..hahah..but for the most part it was a fun&embarrasing nite night..then we went back to staceys and kylee was supposed to come with and uhm wouldnt and her mom and sister were calling liek 348573249075 times..more her mom then on saturday me n stacey went to the mall..and got stuff cause were cool like that hung with matt a lil cause he was working and he was bored..then later at night steph creep n ryan picked us up to go to the HC show in fuckin hazleton..mark would beep everytime we would stop cause he was following..it was a free show and it was pretty good..haha long ride though...creep felt like sick as soon as we got there..but they played good anyway me stace n ry stood up front haha..we stayed a lil then left me stace and creepy alll fell asleep on the ride home..well we could still hear the music so we were only half asleep..hahah i think i was the last one to sleep cause i was texting taylor..we listened to disco the whole way home cause it was saturday nite and no other stations really camne in good..we're cool heheh..we went right back to stacey and i fell asleep within a hour or so..haha uhm then mark called but we didnt want him to come over because we were tired..i dont really remember talking to him but thats what i got out of it..lol..today we woke up to shannon screamin cause shes really sick and she thought she was like dying or something cause her head hurt so bad she couldnt take it...brain tumor? neeeh.. today was bleh boring..i had alot to do..no time at all really till late ..i wanted to hang out with taylor but i had so much to do..: / whatever haha i guess im gunna go now..<*3you've got me up against yer wall, up against yer wall- - I’ll sleep tonight, when you’re okay And I haven’t said it’s okay The things you said, I’m rehearsing them. 004 ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

You're the reason I cannot forget this season.<*3 [20 Oct 2004|07:29pm] [ mood | frustrated ] [[And I'll live without you love]] [[but what good is one glove]] [[without the other?]] im sorry but like i seriously CANT fuckin stand people anymore..my gay ass coach the girls on my team with a select few this doesnt apply to and fucking gay ass people urrrrrhh..oh yehand maybe people can maybe get their own shit too..or maybe they arent cool enough so they have to take other poeples..yeh and i hate aim sometimes..woo well that was enough for tonight..we played freeeeedom yesterday and well..hahah we lost jv and varsity..the guys showed up to our away game which isnt usual but its cool anyway..i did ok..today we only had practice and i was getting yelled at for gay stuff and stuff i had to do in back row which i neverplayed back row before so thats cute...thennnn i went to cool britt's house hahaha and we did some scrapbooking..cool and listened to music haha and danced in her one window that anyone can like see in it bwahaahah yeh i guess were just cool like that..me britt and court have a lil plaaan for tomarrows game..liteeee!! hahahaha woo<*3i believe that lovers should be chained together<*33 Wed burn like the morning;; ......................then break like your heart;; Fall in love without warning;; ...........................just to fall back apart // //editx: kay so im crying now BUTTTT! the blood brothers and against me in 2 days..yeah yeah<*3 with stacey kylee ash..and apparenty mark and gene are comming with who would have though..its kinda weird but stacey knows....hypocritsssssssssssssssssssssssssss* When you laugh you'll feel my breath there filling up your lungs And when you cry those arent your tears but Im there falling down your ..........cheek //<;3 002 ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

[17 Oct 2004|01:22am] i just made a new layout thing n stuff cause like im going to tbb on friday and i had to represent..haha ill change it back to the autumn one i made a lil after..read\/ \/ \/ \/ and comment<*3 003 ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

baby its you*//♥ [16 Oct 2004|12:00pm] [ mood | pumped;//* ] [ music | i hate yer eyes {[Halifax]} ] Have you lost yer breath [or] maybe that's me tearing out yer lungs //* so yeh i babysat last night and the kids were sooooo bad until their mom left to go out..haha cause she said they couldnt get their halloween costumes unless they were good and ahha they were like we were good right like every five minutes haha it was so funny..we mad paper pumpkins wooo ahha..uhm then i came home at 1 and fell alseep right away.. heheh today i woke up cause someoen was at the door...my dad..cause my lil sister had a soccer game and he couldnt find the field haha..my sister just got back and we ran like a half a mile..well a mile in all hah but yeh then i have a game at 3 against stroudsburg..we prolly will win i think anyway..i hope i play..cause i think my mom and dad are going and if not my dad then my mom def is.yey..hehe It's just a breakdown;;.it happens all the time//<*3 ahh i just found somethign i saved from blissmiss<33;; SHMILY297: i seriously dont know what i would do without you, we havent known each other for that long but already we're so close i hope everything goes well in school for you because you deserve the best i'll get to see you soon i promise you've got my only heart<3 i love you lady...if you talk or see erica or benjamin tell them both i miss them //editxx get dowwwwwn woooooooo i just got home from my game a lil ago..we won the first 2 games..varsity won two my dad nanny and mom were there and i was upset cause i thought i did bad but they informed me im to hard on myself..whatever..oh well ha then after my game i went out to eat with the mother figure..it was pretty cool i guess..haha maybe because we werent fighting..neither of us was really in a bad mood..and i was starving..now im home..and my mom doesnt want me going out cause shes having "bad kharma"..2 guys pulled out in front of her and she almost got in accidents both times ..stacey called me on the way home and asked me to ahng and my mom said no because of her bad kharma right as i was yelling "DEER" haha..but we should ahve known cause they come out of the same spot every night haha..cool..there ended up to be like 6 more behind it haha even cooler..im so freakin tired and i need a shower haha and stacey wants to hang but i cant but i want to and blaaaaaahhh!;; xxedit// 002 ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

simple things is what my heart beats for..♥ [14 Oct 2004|10:14pm] [ mood | upset;; ] [ music | Baby it's you♥ {[JoJo}] ] the spotlight shines upon you and how could anybody deny you?♥ \\*****well i just had an awesome journal entry about me complaining about how much i suck at life..but it erased so that was the summary of it all..<*3It seems like yesterday we had the world our way;; Everybody's gone and I've been here for too long to face this on my own..x:x:x ((hit the lights before you leave, you know of the million things you had to say sorry just just might have found its way in there somehow, someway but dont worry sweety cause i already know and im not so sure if i'm sure of anything, anymore and this is the last night that you'll be keeping secrets from me you're so guilty it's desgusting he's been sneaking underneath your sheets your hands in places that they probably shouldnt go but dont worry sweety, cause i already know regardless, my pictures well they dont line your mirror regardless you know that honestly, this is the last time that i'll see you i'll still wait for your call)) ♥ I'm trying so hard to be strong about all of this but i'm afraid i'm failing, already.♥♥♥ 004 ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

and only you can give the breath of life;; [13 Oct 2004|04:00pm] [ mood | confused;; ] [ music | Autumns monologue<*3 {[FATA}] ] the dial tone on the end of this receiver is what's really wrong with me one day dear, i'll come crawling through the front door just to fall into an empty room with a ruined view i'm doing this for you<*3 uhh man..i dont even know whats going on anymore..i guess my weekend was too good for my week cause it sucks..im confused on like 578937856745 diffrent things..and no ones really helping ha..i really dont feel like going to volleyball tonight im kinda getting tired of practicing..i guess cause i have no time ever to catch up on sleep..its so crazy..im not failing english anymore i had a 59.4 but she found my paper and i now have a 73.6 yey..thats one good thing so far..my mom didnt give my any lunch money today and i didnt have anythign i could spare myself so i had to bum a couple dollars off of maggie..and i hate borrowing money from people cause i feel poor then haha..idk i hate getting in the middle of things it sucks ya know...<*3Fate works both ways; simple things is what my heart beats for.. - -under stars. i watch the sky. as night consumes the daylight. and i recall the sweetest dreams. but red wine helps them fade. here's to another glass. i need it to displace. the emptiness i cannot swallow. i tried to cleanse these guilty hands. but the stains they won't leave. i tried to rush to your defense. but i tripped on my weak words. don't terrorize. my senseless whines will fade. my eyes complain. my mouth stays shut. i leave you in your bed. i pulled your teeth. to hear the truth. the truth is it still kills me to this day. but don't terrorize. my senseless whines will fade. into another glass. it's too soon for today. today i feel about okay. i wait for these nights to come to an end. so i can feel at home. i tried to rush to your defense. but these guilty hands they shake. don't terrorize. my senseless whines will fade.**** if i could split my heart in two. i'd give the bEaTinG half to you. if these words never rise above us. (i swear i'd slit my wrists for you.) if life becomes so cold and dim. that to b r e a t h e is to live. then i'll breathe for you. but i won't repent. i won't repent for what i did to make this break. here's to another glass. i need it to replace the emptiness. i cannot take away**** 004 ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

[11 Oct 2004|11:14am] [ mood | woooooo;; ] [ music | the Used {[I'm a Fake}] ] now you see me now you don't now you need me now you don't heyyy not much to say well there is but i dont wanna..fuckin fun ass times with stacey shannon and alyssa<*333 woooooo- - haha i love those girls...oh shit..wooooooooo homecomming was on friday..i went to ericas then the game then me tay maggie danny casi and hayden went to taylors house for a bit then to the dance..fun times bwahah..uhm..yeh<*3I'm against all that I've made up-Set in stone the sun will come-And I hate light-You know I hate light-Dont make it look so pretty burning-Burn the sun-Burn the light-Take take take take take take it away-Take my hand-Take my life-Take take take take take take it away-I must have caught something-In the heat of all these dances-I'm a worm with no more chances-And I've lost all doubt-In a chemical romance-I guess I'm bitching-At the thoughts of tarnished hope-It's kind of funny-The only feeling -I'm not in love-You know it's not love<*3 002 ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

[07 Oct 2004|09:07pm] [ mood | urrrrrh :-/ ] i uhm..hate my team..oh yeh and volleyball sucks for me..ha and school..ok im done 002 ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

I don't mind spending everyday out on yer corner in the pouring rain.<*3 [02 Oct 2004|09:02pm] [ mood | <*3;; ] [ music | stop crying yer heart out {[Oasis}] ] I’ve been sleeping with the lights on So if I wake in the night Your picture is clearly in sight So let’s meet at the mouth for a kiss That’s been so long overdue hey heyyy..i forget what i did since last time...i know i went for ice cream with hanne after the emmaus game..and she ate some of her ice cream..then ate mine..and liked it better so she put her eaten one back..haha thats cool..then uhm we played uhm..pleasent valley on friday we won..well JV did haha..nadean<33 haha fran and britt suckkk!! haha..lol yeh so i scared like 4 people in the bathrooms there it was cool..me and fran worked as a team..hehe..then hmmm.. went to alyssas after the game..and lauren kylee christine & her were sitting there eating pizza and wings so duh i joined in..freakin d and drew came..and im like sitting there in spandex then alyssas bro comes downstairs..ahh..hah then i took a shower then we went to pick out a movie..well we couldnt find a movie..then i picked this movie up and it had like people kissing on it so i read the back and it said something about an investigation of a murder and it was called wicked intentions i told lys it looked real good and shes like yeh lets get it so we agreed on that..we come home..and play truth..which was sooooo funny..hah then went into watch a movie and i picked out this freakin like porn movie thing where one of the girls having sex got murdered..and it was 2 minutes into the movie and theres already like this wild sex going on..so i get blamed for it all hahah...woke up at 8 this morning cause lys had a saturday and didnt wanna go so her n her dad was fighting..we ate then like hung around..then a lil later my mom picked me up..and we were going to my grammas and i said i wanted body in my hair cause its like so gay so shes like get a body perm..so i went to get that..and my hair is like curly..which is gaaaay..and picture day is in 2 days!!!..blehh..went to take somethign bakc at the lehigh valley mall but they didnt have any of the thing i got legft so i had to exchange for somethign else..i got jeans.. wooo then my mom shopped a bit then was like crossings?!? and duh i said yes..so i took a nap hah while she drove there..which isnt that far..and i got another pair of pants and socks..still no shirt to wear on monday..so im going shopping at the south mall tomarrow with my dad when he goes to pick up my brother..ha coool..i neeed shoes too cause i only have sandals now cause i lost me other shoes..im coool..uhhh im kinda tired now..ryan and kylee just called me cause they wanted me to go to bogins but i cant make it tonight darn!!!..im tired anyway and have to get up before 10 tomarrow for when my dad comes to pick me up..haha c yaaaa // I can't get up when you're gone And something's breaking up // I feel like giving up - - I won't walk out until you know;; Here I go, scream my lungs out & try to get to you- - You are my only one I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do -edit// i didnt feel like making a whole new entry..sooo..yeh uhm i woke up for my dad to pick me up today and he like didnt come til 11..ha cool then uhm we picked up my bro at pet supplies cause his mom was working there then looked in tha south mall...which sucked alot..then i made my dad take me to the lehigh valley mall and i went into hollisters and got a shirt haha..and on my way out im thinking it was weird i didnt see anyone in there and as im thnkning that i see britt..from my v ball team..aka my bench buddie hahaha..ha yeh then we talked and she told me she had the biggest hangover hahah and her mom came over n said she liked my hair and britt did too..so thats good..then i wanted a cd so i made my dad take me to borders and like i only had 16 dollars and i didnt feel like looking to i just got tbs's new cd cause im cool like that..and this lady gave me a coupon so it was only 12 dollars..awesome..then we stopped at my dads house and like right after we pull in these like 6 black guys get out of this car im like uhhh i wanna go home..they were really weird ha but w/e and im home now so cool..haha byyye //edit- ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

- -the wind outside is biting..it's left me feeling tired and exposed//<*3 [28 Sep 2004|03:50pm] [ mood | hmmm..? ] [ music | The sharp hint of new tears {[Dashboard..}] ] - - wow livejournal is getting weirder and weirder..hah woo..anyway..uhm went to g g g guniTTT's house on saturday..it was fuuun then on uhm..went to bed at 4 ..ahh woke up at like 9 to shannon saying LOOK AT JULIA'S FACE and then both of them crack up..weird..then we got dressed n stuff n hoop picked us up..and we went to his house with aaron and then beef came..and i felt weird i didnt know them..well i did but i didnt really hang out with them..we made up my story for english oh man..then stacey typed it for me and yeh..but we got an extra day..the kids i babysat on friday were so..weird..the lil boy was jumping on the top bunk of their beds and hitting his head on the ceiling everytime and there was like this huge dent in their ceiling.. *i have a v ball game soon..my sister drove in ...a puddle and her car got water in it and it might be ruined fun stuff for her..i really hate my hair..i def. dont know what to do with it anymore..its so haggard blehhh..I'm not foolin this feelin is real<*3 There are words carved in my chest and they said... "Could somebody show me the kind of affection that you only see in the movies, you know what I mean" You'd make a great secret* If I could keep you*- - - -but we all s p i l l our guts.* ;;; so yeh i actually PLAYED against emmaus..in the second game how exciting..oh yeh JV won against them woo wooo varsity got their butts kicked horrrrribly..aw man..some girls on my team can be real bitches..cook 4 chickens hanne ha..ha..ha..ha.. 003 ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

[21 Sep 2004|10:25pm] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | the transition [{Hawthorne heights}] ] yeh well i stink at volleyball thats for sure..i get so frustared and some ladies on the jv team are BITCHES!!! lemme tell you ehh.. shine on diamond eyes hmm..hurricane lost power for 3 days woo woo..then uhm i had a tournament that day!! it took me 45 minutes to get to the school when it usually only takes me 10 ..thats cool i guess my mom got a second job to cover for my dad having..uhm..NO JOB..hes retarded like that..its not cool at all trust me..our warm up suits for v ball are really ugly but comfortable..it looked like i mugged missy elliot of her clothes..THATS COOL.. im having a brain fart and dunno what to write..youll have to wait til next entry..fun! -----I believe* in the faith that g r o w s and the f o u r right chords can make me c r y when im with y o u* i feel like i could d i e ----and that would be alright, a l r i g h t. <he knows3************************w0o wo0 002 ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

*Kiss me, I'm Contagious)) [16 Sep 2004|07:41pm] [ mood | sick..stuffy..w/e ] [ music | Ultimatums for Egos [[FFTL]] ] well well well look what the rat dragged in..DARCY woo woo yeh uhm monday had pictures then we played freedom..we all lost..so fun..its ok i didnt play..i bring happiness to all lonely benchs everywhere!!..yeh wednesday we played liberty..JV WON woo woo..varsity didnt but they put up a good fight..hmm..on monday i think it was i went to wegmans after our game with hanne my lovely sister that i thought hated me..and i moved the bench..yes yes..i was the guard of the bathroom refecting peepole in any wegmans..if you even need me just call..ha but yeh it was really funny..hanne lost some weight in the meantime..haha..so we didnt have enough monaaaay for 2 ice creams so we got one..and a spoon..and a cup ..and skittles but i forgot them..oh well i had like 3 and 3/4 spoonfuls in my cup..it was damn good..then we met my mom at the diner cause she insisted..today was thursday woo..i wasnt in a good mood..but i wasnt mad it was more like a sad mood but its ok now..i love my friends by the way but yeh i was having a bad night last night and coach didnt play me again i guess the bench was getting really cold..although i dont cover much of it..haa..yeh we got our warm up outfit..the pants are haggard in my opinion jackets yummy..ok volleyball sucks enough for me to stop talking about it now.. *by the way i DO NOT think mr. ding is hot im a minority i guess..peepole obsess over uhm him..ew..weird..standards english is realllllly pointless..and like not hard but the stuff we have to do is so worthless no one gets it..its rediculous..i dont like the gay ass teacher either..i also have regular 10th grade english mext semester*yuck!i had 2 detentions already how dumb..and i almost got a 3rd..for being late to class of course..2 of mine are so out of the way of my locker its crazy..cant blame me..((*I'm directing the scene; -------------------------------------------- -that has you&me f o r e v e r. that stuff^^ rules my life..its so unfair.. long post..im really sorry TaintedLove5494: i was walkin home n this old guy game outside and was like your too skinny.. here and he gave me a vanilla wafer ^^hahah tru dat,,i love her~! You move slow like daytime drama* And I'm boring* like his songs// 006 ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

Note to self: I miss you terrebly, this is what we call a tragedy, come back to me, back to me, to m [11 Sep 2004|03:04pm] [ mood | ahhh.. ] [ music | Ultimatums for egos [fftl] ] My lungs collapse as I' m gasping for a i r I'll------------breathe---------you---------in You------are-------my----oxygen---alone Through--------arteries-------------untold your--skin--is---pale,--my---body's---cold Way--down,--deep--down--in--my--lungs I-----can-----hear-----our----sweet---decay So---------spill----------my-------------blood Midnight---skies---turn---scarlet---red hmm..internet wasnt avalable sooo i didnt get to update in a while..but anyway..we won against easton and becha or w/e haha football game yesterday went with kylee and lauren then uhm..hung out wiht them talked to alot of peepole that i hardly see or talk to and then dun dun dun i found karl and hanne who were trying to reach me to hang out i was told and i didnt have my phone with me woo woo then we drove around looking for someone to be home with a toilet? if that makes sense..haha hmm..school really stinks on ice although i dont think i said it wouldnt..hmm..yeh so i had v*ball today 9;30 to 12 YUM!!! ha then came home IM SUPPOSED TO BE AT THE MALL but my mom decidied to make a cake..and i think shes crying..i dont know why though and i dont wanna go up cause then shell say its allergies or somethign..i think she gets embarrased..idk..i have to BABYSIT tonight sounds like sooooo much fun..mehh then either sleeeping at my dads or hannes if she feels like picking me up hehe..he knowwwwwwws!:P try to say sorry when these were yer worst intentions<*3 - -!&the truth is that ill never tell you anything cause everytime i try my words come out;***** &[k i l l me q u i c k]********** Crush my dreams I'll fade away.<*3</font> 007 ( NØteTo§elƒ * )

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